Monster WithIn> Panic Attacks<

by RHONDA SHAW
(EATONTON,GA)

I HAD MY 1ST PANIC IN SPRING 2000, DON'T FOR THE LIFE OF ME,KNOW WHERE IT CAME FROM,WHY IT HAPPENED OR MUCH LESS EVEN TODAY,11 YRS LATER EVEN UNDERSTAND IT,>THEM EXCEPT < TO RUIN SOMEONE'S LIFE!

I'M NOT A BAD PERSON,NEVER HAVE BEEN, SOOO, IT CAN'T BE PUNISHMENT FOR THAT, BUT STILL, I'M IN MY OWN PRISON!! FOR ALONG TIME, I ALSO TRIED 2 KEEP MY DAUGHTER IN MY PRISON WITH ME,BECAUSE OF FEAR..>BEING ALONE,DRIVING, ETC. YOU NAME IT - IT COMPLETELY CHANGED MY LIFE, ALL IN 1 NIGHT.


MY ALARM CLOCK WENT OFF BETWEEN 5:00 & 5:30,SAT UP IN MY BED,& OMG! I WAS TERRIFIED! WHY? TO THIS DAY I STILL DON'T KNOW WHY,AND I COULDN'T GET OUT OF BED,MUCH LESS DRIVE TO WORK..NEXT DAY AND SO FORTH,I HAD MY DAUGHTER FROM THAT DAY ON DRIVE ME IN MY BRAND NEW 2000 FORD EXPLORER SPORT!!! I COULDN'T NOR DID I EVEN WANT TO DRIVE.


TODAY,I PRETTY MUCH STAY IN THE CONFINES OF MY YARD, TOOK ME YRS TO EVEN GET OFF OF THE PORCH.
MAYBE ONE DAY,THEIR WILL BE A PERMANENT DEATH TO THE MONSTER WITHIN... PANIC ATTACKS HAVE RUINED MY LIFE COMPLETELY!!!

KLONOPIN IS A GREAT PRESCRIPTION TO HELP , BUT SO MANY WANT TO TAKE AND GET HIGH FROM ALL THE MEDS THAT DO HELP, THAT NOW DOCTORS DON'T WANT TO TOUCH IT, I REALLY CANNOT BLAME THEM 4 IT, BUT IF IT EVER ATTACKS THEM, THEN & ONLY THEN, WILL THEY WALK IN OUR SHOES & KNOW EXACTLY WHAT WE ARE GOING THRU.