Panic attacks suck!

by Carissa
(Maine)

Well,
I was 17 years old my panic attacks started. I was in class and all of a sudden I got this weird rush over my head. My heart started racing, I felt like someone was choking me, I couldn't breath and I got extremely shaky. I felt dizzy, I felt like I couldnt see straight. I felt as though I was going to pass out. I instantly thought that I was going to just drop dead.

Then it just kept happening over and over again for the next 2 weeks. It seemed as though I was continuously in a panic attack or thinking about another one happening. I went to see a psychologist and she put me on an anti-depressant which made them ten times more intense. I felt lost and hopeless.

I was so young and I had no idea what was going on. Then about 2 weeks later they went away, and I would only have one once or twice every six months. Then they went away completely for 2 years.

Recently, over the past week I have been getting them continuously again. I feel anxious right at this moment. I had a job interview today in which I was having a panic attack the entire time. Don't know how I swung that one but I did. I just want them to go away all together so I can live my life.

I am only 22 years old and I am so sick of living my life in fear. Constantly thinking I am just going to drop dead. Afraid to go to sleep for fear I won't wake up. I just don't know what to do anymore. If anyone has any suggestions please please let me know!